Day 5: Ceremony 3: Fear! The Thief of Dreams

Last night was one of the greatest experiences of my life.  I spent most of the morning sleeping and decided to have a late breakfast so I can bask in the memory of last night’s epiphanies.  During breakfast and afterwards we all just keep sharing our experiences from last night since everyone went into the medicine.   I seemed to have had the most positive journies from last night as many were talking about very dark presences and lots of fear in the room.  I felt the need to share about how I was able to work with my consciousness to achieve great realizations to possibly bring light to others. 

After a delicious quinoa salad for lunch we had a little free time before share circle so I went and had a nap to process and get ready for tonight’s ceremony and hopefully another night of bliss.  After a quick nap I head back to the ceremony room to share again in a more formal meeting to learn and listen to others once again.  Even when you are not sharing, the light and positivity still bring you up and it is so great to be apart of.  I sit next to Irfan and Meagan, there are a few missing today including Jen and Cody, but most are present. 

Jonie shared that she had much of the same visions from the first night, which upset her because there was so much pain that night.  She said that she felt she was being shown it again because she needed to face it again without any emotion. 

Matt, Harvey, Brian, Clark and Hillary all told about their demons they saw.  Many didn’t quite know how to handle it or what there meanings were.  Hillary spoke of seeing many skulls and Clark saw a hooded figure but chose not to face it and ran away from it. 

Kristen spent most of the night crying and was terrified.  She said she didn’t know how to process any of it, which is to be expected for someone so young.  Lee spent a lot of time that night trying to suck the pain away from Kristen with the help of Orlando but didn’t do lots of work himself that night. 

After all had shared their experience it came to me.  I was the only one who had feelings of heaven on earth. When I shared my story I went on a bit longer than others. When I was done I expected people to comment that I spoke a little too long but instead everyone was really taken back by my comments and many commented how beautiful my experience sounded.  That made me feel amazing that I was able to bring some positive energy back in the meeting. 

After the meeting I quickly went back to the hut to grab my journal and iphone to record a video journal about last night before the ceremony tonight.  I spend the next couple hours getting everything out, either on paper or on video and then grab my stuff to head to ceremony three.  I hope that the experience isn’t exactly the same but even if it is I will be happy for it.  See you on the other side.  


Below is another video describing my most intense and profound night with Mother Ayahuasca.  It is a true representation of what is possible when working with the medicine.  It is by far the best video of the journey.  Enjoy!!