Epilogue: An Engagement Story

It would be silly to say that when we got back from the jungle that life wasn’t a little different.  We had been told that our power of manifestation would reach new levels after vibrating at such an incredible rate but we had no idea just how powerful.  After returning home Meagan and I discussed that it would be smart to keep what we had learned to ourselves for now since we ourselves were still processing all of the new information.  We had already made the mistake of scaring one of our friends when he picked us up from the airport.   Our excitement got the better of us and we just started unloading all of the amazing things we saw and experienced and it was too much for our friend who almost had a panic attack just listening to us.  Even walking into the 7-11 for the first time a block away from where we live, the staff could tell that we were buzzing off of some serious energy. 

The first few days after coming home I began to experience extreme visions at moments throughout the day.  I could actually feel the pineal gland in my brain being activated.  It allowed me to slip briefly in and out of my conscious state and eliminate my ego.  These visions were not intense like when I was taking the medicine but the thoughts were just as profound.  It was as if I had taught my brain to think in a new way and keep that process going.  My dreams became far more intense and I often was waking up with clear memories of what I had seen and even began to see the things in my dreams come to fruition.  These moments did have breaks in between them where I felt completely normal but even then there was a weight that was no longer there.   Often to get the spark back to reactivate this all it would take was a hit of weed and my mind would begin to let go, but then would become a fine tuned machine sorting through thoughts like rolodex.  Everything was clearer and more organized.

Ramses and Miguel had also said that physical exercise and yoga were very easy ways to get back in this meditative state of mind.  As I went back to the gym I found that the more active things I did the more this vibration would begin to rise.  I had always felt a boost working out but this was more than just serotonin level rising.  Even walking around I could feel my aura beaming brightly for all to see. 

There were some people however that I was very excited to share some of these experiences with. I would only talk to people that knew me well enough that they wouldn’t look at me like I was crazy.  Whenever I began to speak about it to anyone that would allow me to just go off I found that this overwhelming feeling would take over my body.  I would feel shivers come over me and at times my body would shake with excitement.  I would have to take deep breathes at times because I could feel my heart racing so fast that I would lose my breath.  In no way was this feeling bad though, I relished when it happened as it made me feel more alive. 

The biggest thing that happened after returning was Meagan’s birthday, which was only a week later after getting back from Peru.  Before we had left I had been spending the first few months of the year designing an engagement ring.  My original plan was to ask Meagan to marry me after our ceremonies at the Tierra Vida.  I thought that it would be an amazing way to ask her after having grown so much together.  After thinking about it for a while I decided that I wanted to make our Peru trip just about our own personal journeys and healing and not steal attention away from others.  I also worried about bringing the ring to another country or worse losing or having it stolen.  Instead I decided to wait for Meagan’s birthday to pop the question since I would have an excuse to travel somewhere special without raising suspicion. 

When Meagan and I first met we had only been dating about a few weeks and Meagan decided one weekend she wanted to go to Banff and stay in a suite in the Banff Springs Hotel.  We drove all the way out only to find out that they were booked for the night.  Remembering this moment I decided that it would be so romantic to take her back there and propose since it was the place we wanted to be on our first trip away together.  I booked the hotel only a few days before online and since we had just done a huge trip as well as I had just purchased a ring I didn’t get a suite but just a regular room.  I knew she would understand under the circumstances why I couldn’t afford to spend more.  I now had a location for the most romantic moment of my life. 

The ring was the next thing on the list.  I had given the jewelry maker a few more weeks with the piece while in Peru to get it absolutely perfect.  I had decided to go to a friend of Meagan’s to have the ring made.   She was so excited to make it for her and especially since I had a very unique design idea.  Meagan and I often talk about being opposites of one another but yet there is a powerful connection that binds us, a piece of us that lives within one another.  I, being raised in a very pure religious upbringing am the light but with a bit of darkness inside.  Meagan being raised in more of a bohemian lifestyle but with much good inside her, she is the dark with a little light.  We balance one another like a yin and yang.  It was with this idea that I decided to make her ring a yin-yang ring.  My mother graciously offered the engagement diamond.  It was important to me that something from our family was in the ring to show the support from them.  It was placed in the ring with the black diamond stones to make up the engagement ring.  The white diamonds with the single black diamond will be the wedding band to symbolize that we are separate until we are joined and then we are one. 

I contacted Debra, the ring maker, a few days before Meagan’s birthday to make sure the ring would be ready.   She had me come in and when I did everyone was so excited for me to see it, as it had been quite the topic of conversation in the shop.  Many had come to admire the work and idea of it.  The craftsmanship was spot on and just looking at it I knew that she would love it.  I had been worried through the whole process that the ring was too big but my faith in Debra’s skills and taste helped me.  The ring had photos taken of it to be used in a new marketing add for the store to show there design capabilities. 

I now had the location and the ring but now I needed a way in which to do it.  I wanted the proposal to be private and not in the open at all to not make it awkward for her or I.  I decided to create a beautiful ambiance in the hotel room and ask her there.  I called a floral shop to get a couple dozen roses stripped of its petals.  I then went and bought a hundred candles and packed up the car and headed to the mountains.

Meagan had said that our vacation was so intense and overwhelming in the jungle that she needed a vacation away from her vacation.  I was excited to be providing that.  While driving up I had a vision of being in a large room at the hotel and even saw exactly how I was going to lay it out.  Although I knew that is not what I had booked this feeling came over me that everything was going to work out.  I even started to think about what I would say but my mind just kept saying “don’t worry about it, it will come to you.”  

When we arrived at the Hotel around 6pm we went to the front desk to check in.  There seemed to be lots of people in the main building.  I saw that there was an AGLC conference going on as many liquor company’s banners were present.  The person at the front desk informed us what was going on and told us that we had been moved to accommodate the conference attendees.  The moved us to the conference building into a presidential suite.  It came as no shock to me but I was excited to see the room.  When I walked in it was if I had walked into the vision in my mind.  It was an enormous room with stairs up to a gazebo that overlooked the whole entrance to the castle.  I immediately saw the scene that I was to create, but it would take more time than I had thought to set up. I had made reservations at the Castillo Ristorante at the Banff Springs for dinner.  My plan was that while we were eating that I would sneak away to the room and set everything setup, as it shouldn’t take too long. 

When we headed down for dinner I kind of prepreped the room so when I got back I just had to set up the flowers and candles and didn’t have to clean it up at all.  Since it was a special occasion Meagan and I dressed up really fancy but little did she know that it was more than just her birthday.  We had the most amazing waiter serve us and every course was better than the last.  We had been tempted with drinking only to appease social convention but neither one of our bodies wanted it after having Ayahuasca, I wondered if ever again.  At the end of the meal I told Meagan to stay and have the bill charged to room while I went and got her birthday present. 

I ran back to the room and began to setup with so much excitement I could barely contain myself.  I placed flowers on the ground like a pathway from the door to the top of the stairs.  I also placed candles in the same fashion and then in a circle in the gazebo.  I then put some larger candles around the room and flowers on the bed.  It suddenly occurred to me that she had no way of getting in so I put my key under the door and then went and got in position.  She walked in with all of the windows closed so the room was just illuminated in candlelight.  She followed the path with a smile from ear to ear still not sure what to expect. 

As she began to get closer to me I could feel my heart beat but not uncontrollably.  There was an unbelievable calm about me.  I had no worry in the world, I knew what to say and I knew she would say yes so there was not need to worry.  She made it up to me and I pulled her in the circle.   I grabbed her hands and said “I think you know what this is,” as I chuckle.  “I love you more than I can put into words.  I asked myself in the jungle but I have known all along you are the one.”  I got down on one knee in my suit and bowtie and I asked her to marry me.  She buried her face in her hands and when she opened them I opened up the box to reveal her engagement ring.  The moment she noticed what it was she began to cry.  I kissed her and said “you still haven’t answered” she said, “of course I will marry you.”  We held each other in that spot for a few minutes and then sat down on the couch in the gazebo.  Looking around the room and feeling the overwhelming feelings of love for my partner made it into one of the most intimate settings I could have ever imagined.  We sat and talked on the couch basically planning our life for the next few hours.  We shared an amazing night together and woke up the next morning had an incredible breakfast, a swim in the pool while the morning fog swept through the mountain air.  I am the luckiest man in the world. 

There is no doubt in my mind that I manifested this whole experience.  I had no real plans the week of my proposal and every detail just seemed to fall in place so effortlessly.  It seems that the people at the Tierra Vida were right, I need to be very mindful of the things I choose to dwell on as they manifest very quickly.  Over the next few months I started to see an influx in opportunities come my way in the way that I wanted them to come.  Although my visions have gone and I do not feel the medicine in me anymore I am now certain that I need to return to the jungle to obtain more teachings and manifest the next part of my life.